As Good As It Gets

Poster¡G Eric Tseng at 18:24:43 3/16/98 from
Journal 1 
Name: Eric Tseng 
No: 486200511 
" After Death" 
Actually speaking, I think we can use two different viewpoints to interpret this poem. Because the writer is a female, we may easily consider the speaker is a female, too. If we stand on this point, we can find that this poem is written by a wife or a girl to her husband or boyfriend. But the relationship between them is not good, for we can see this in the last third line, " He did not love me living," . Besides, the listener may be not faithful to the speaker, too. So, to put these details together, we can image a picture. Before the speaker's death, the speaker and the listener had a quarrel with each other; then, the speaker walked away angrily. The listener still stayed there alone. All of a sudden, a car rushed from a lane and hit the speaker fiercely just on her way home. The listener shocked with the huge sound and ran to the spot anxiously and quickly. He saw the terrible accident and cried out loudly. He continued calling her name and tried to wake up her. But it didn't work. Then, the scene changed to a hospital. The speaker's family came to the hospital hurriedly and asked the listener about her condition. They walked around in front of the door and couldn't stay calm. When the doctor came out from the door and announced her death, some people cried with tears and some kept cool but felt so painful in their deep hearts. Then, the scene changed to a funeral again. The speaker lay on a coffin ( the bed ) quietly and there were a lot of flowers around her. Her family, including the listener, were all in black and stood around her coffin. They mourned and prayed for her. When her family left, the listener still stood beside her and looked at her pale face. Though he always kept peaceful in front of people's faces, when he was alone with her, he couldn't help but weep. He looked at her face and said, " Poor child, poor child, I'm really sorry, I'm sorry to make you angry. It shouldn't become like this. Oh, please forgive me. My dear, I love you forever." In his eyes, she couldn't hear anything any more and understood nothing about what he said. But on the contrary, she indeed heard everything and knew his sincerity and love. So she said, "Very sweet it is to know he still is warm though I am cold." She felt gratified and forgave him in the end. 

Isn't it like a romance story? That's my first impression after reading the poem. But from the poem, we also can find some ironic descriptions. They are in the last two sentences. These words make me think of a question. Why people always regret after the chance has gone? The chance here is usually referred to "death" in many literatures. When they are alive, they dare not to speak out what they think, to express their feelings and do what they want to do. They often keep these in minds. As a result, we will find that in many movies, plays, stories or novels, it is not the death that makes us feel so sorry but the love or affection which the characters don't tell each other on time when they are alive. For example, one of Shakespeare's famous play, " Romeo and Juliet" is the best proof. The same opportunity won't come for the second time. So, we should hold it when it comes in spite of the consequence. Then, we can be real content about ourselves. I think this is also an important for us to learn in our whole life. 

But if we image the listener in the poem is a male, How do you feel about the poem? Does it still sound romantic or disgusting? In my opinion, I will feel more pitiful about the poem, for homosexuality is still not acceptable by most of the people. As a result, the road for them to walk is more difficult and dangerous than the normal people. Maybe when they die, they still can't tell the public or the person that he loves him, right?